Yes, you can be a content creator and writer, even with a disability.
Do not let a disability define who you are
The Veteran Service Officer was a courteous young woman with kind eyes. Her job was to help me file a disability claim with the Veteran Administration (VA) and she began with a series of questions. My medical record was a paper stack almost two feet high, a testament to a 15-year career cut short by injuries that led to early retirement.
“Did you ever lose consciousness while serving in the military?”
“Er, twice I believe,” I answered.
“According to your medical records, you were knocked out six times.”
“Oh, ok.”
She started to list the various times in my military career when these concussions were recorded. Looking through the records spread out on the table gave me a sense of time traveling to the specific moments when I had a bad day: Sustaining a serious head injury working at the barracks early in my career, (concussion) the head-on automobile crash while headed to the base that forever wrecked my spine (and another concussion), the cargo load connected to a helicopter at sea that nearly took me over the side of the ship (yup, concussion as well). To be sure, I had other injuries that would be assigned a rating of disability by the VA, but the multiple concussions would take their toll on me the most.
All of this later resulted in a diagnosis of Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) at the VA with a succession of cognitive therapy and multiple prescriptions to help with mental focus. Nearly a decade after that office visit, I can proudly say that I am a college graduate, an aviation maintenance analyst, and a writer.
Do I still easily forget things, or have trouble with utilizing a vocabulary that was built from being a lifetime reader? Yes. Are there days and moments that frustrate? Of course. Life is not fair, nor is it easy for any of us, but I wanted to create a post sharing my journey to those out there who feel they cannot be creators due to limitations. These tips are not only for those with a TBI, but for a number of conditions that affect cognitive mental function.
(Disclaimer: The following is not a substitute for medical advice or a diagnosis by a healthcare professional.)
Accept the reality of circumstances
“Disabled.” Many of us do not even like to think of ourselves with that label, even as we take the numerous prescriptions, make our physical therapy appointments, or have that daily struggle to navigate a stairway. Yet, acceptance of one’s physical/mental condition is the first step towards gaining a semblance of control over it. A helpful philosophy comes from The Stoics of Ancient Greece: “Stoicism is a mindset and philosophy that's based on the logical premise that your mind determines your perceptions, which can be trained.”
“Your thoughts and beliefs create the world you inhabit, not external circumstances, so you ought to take responsibility for your mind.”
Now, this does not require one to become an expert in the philosophy of Stoicism to redeem the full benefits, but it does start with the right mindset that we (creators) need to have when presented with extra challenges to perfecting our craft. Understanding it may take more time to accomplish our writing goals, to get started on a project, or struggle more than others, is part of the process can be a big mental hurdle. Taking this into account and being cognizant of the limitations will help to achieve the most as a creator.
Guidelines and Resources
Topic selection and story outlines and are important elements when planning out what to write, but for those with the extra challenge of TBI these become essential. Once a topic is decided on, the next step is to put together as much of the outline as possible. Think of it as the ‘bones’ of the project that we add to later. The best technique that works for me is to imagine I am writing a research paper and to sectionalize the different parts that will be needed during the process. Keep resources at hand to assist during the writing process. Thesaurus and Dictionary Dot.com are invaluable to help find that specific word or meaning when writing.
Deadlines are flexible, but set reasonable goals
Would most of us love to sit down at the keyboard and knock out 2-4000 usable words of content daily? Of course! Is there a high probability of being able to accomplish that on the regular? No. But, it is important to push for an obtainable goal on a set basis, whether daily or weekly on the level of output one can produce. Try hard not to compare oneself to other writer production levels. What works for them is exactly that; For Them. The goal is not to become as good as someone else, it is to become as good as one can be.
Finally, Do Not Quit
Some days go by and the page remains blank with the concentration and thoughts eluding ourselves. That is OK. What is not ok is to let that page stay blank the next day. Or the next one after that. Staying the course and coming back to that page until the ideas become words is how one wins the battle. It will take commitment because this is a forever war that does not have a decisive battle to turn the tide. The only winning strategy is to wake up and make the decision, once again, to continue fighting.
After 26 years in the Navy my ship was heading back from Desert Storm. I had been a 30 year man until that deployment but had burned out from sleep deprivation and fatigue at age 43. Not your typical war wound. I wasn't complaining...was just used up, tired, wanted out, needed to work on my massive sleep debt. Was a CICO on an Aegis Cruiser, a busy guy. We stopped in Marseille, France, where I had my retirement physical on a Navy Destroyer Tender. Most folks I know got the generic 10-15% VA disability after 20. That was pretty much pro forma. I wasn't much interested. Felt fit enough aside from deafness, achy joints, an ancient gun shot wound...and that burn out from lack of sleep for 6 months. Feel guilt about killing innocent Vietnamese civilians because the NGFS spotter screwed up but it was a teamwork thing and we share the outcomes. The doc on the tender said they couldn't certify any disabilities there, that I'd need to go to a proper hospital stateside. My retirement date was Monday 1 July 1991 and I knew we were to arrive in Mayport on 28 June, a Friday. All I wanted was out. Didn't want to stay in the Navy one day longer than 1 July. I left the telephone off the hook that weekend. I declined any disability. When the ship arrived that Friday in June I skipped the ceremonies on the quarterdeck, met my wife and kids on the pier and drove home to Pensacola. Never made a VA claim. Always considered that whatever happened to my body and mind in the Navy was normal wear and tear. My friends tell I am stupid. But I made my choices back in 1991. Am still deaf, my joints ache, have diabetes now and have some horrid nightmares. The nightmares are real. They always involve me at my current age in a set of Dress Blues with the hem of my jumper riding up over my belly, going aboard an Aircraft Carrier as an E-6 in the ship's 3-M Coordinator billet*. And tomorrow is the annual 3-M inspection. I retired an LDO LT, used to be a CWO3 and EWCS(SW). The nightmare's theme was me being an E-6 again (and forever) and I am surrounded by everyone I ever had to use cross words with in the line of duty. They are all as young as they used to be but all are now E-7 and above and have wolfish grins. The nightmare is real. I cannot wake up from it. Sometimes my wife has to shake me awake. Big deal, I say to myself, I have all my limbs and am relatively spry at age 75. My dad had it worse with nightmares of being an Air Force pilot of unarmed cargo, paratrooper and SIGINT planes in WWII and the Korean War. Many of his friends were killed. He also flew many medevac flights from Nazi death camps to England after the war. I begrudge no one a VA claim. It is just not something I want to endure. Hate paperwork, being poked and prodded and being jerked around by bureauweenies safeguarding the government coffers. God bless you, Arthur, I wish you well and a complete healing.
*(Note: Long ago the EW rating, now defunct after being gobbled up by the Cryppies, volunteered one EWCM slot to a 3-M Coordinator billet aboard a CVA, the more decrepit the better. All EWCM billets were shore duty except that one. That billet was for a punishment tour. True story. I know one of the EWCM's who got detailed. Lord, he had it coming, and his assignment was much cheered by the small EW community.)